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this month has gone by so quickly it freaks me out. this whole year actually has been moving too fast. it's basically summer. ahh i'm always complaining. ok

a ton of my garden is sprouting really well, my potatoes are shooting up and i'm planning to get more 5 gal buckets and plant more. i have a couple taters cultivating their nasty little eyes in the dark pantry. and a ton more hay. idk what else i'll use that for really. maybe just the top of my garden beds. here's what i'm growing so far:

lettuce, spring onions, carrots, spinach, thyme, rosemary, lavender, basil, peppers, tomatoes, marigolds, snap peas

i know some of these are out of season but they're doing well enough. i also wanna do more planting inside because we have a lot of space we aren't using that i could fill up with plants/veg. i'm also propagating a tonnn of pothos bc it's so easy.

also i need to update the site still so all my pages match. i'm not sure if i'm gonna do a completely different layout for the other pages or not. it already took me so long to get this one out lol. but i wanna have a little spot squared away for each of my interests :~) ooh, idea, maybe since i love my ring layout so much i can keep it as the movies page layout. then change all the other ones. hmm

i have a sinus cold, again. very disappointing. extremely annoying. i ate a raw garlic clove covered in honey last night as a desperate attempt to reverse it all. idk if it worked, i feel sicker.

i've been trying to spend time out in the yard and in nature without my phone because it's a sort of demonic device siphoning away my life force. anyway it's really peaceful bug hunting and just lookin around and observing reality as it is. i'm being dramatic, sorry. it's hard, i feel like i never speak much, never write, i'm always just focused on some outside stimuli to keep me amused (reels/youtube/etc) and in between that i'm like violently self aware about how bad for me it is... idk i just feel like i don't read anymore, you know, and big readers i know aren't reading either, and it feels sort of like everything is super dark all around us and i really hope it all gets better. and i hope nature can heal us

i saw three different spiders outside just now, a jumping spider, a little widow of some sort, and what i think was a very tiny ogre spider because his four legs were together in the front like those do. i'd include a picture if they weren't the scariest little freaks imaginable.

i really wanna stick to this blog and actually keep up with it. i need something that's a proper outlet. my brain is turning into mush